I can only say this to you since you already away from us since yesterday. Maybe the angles are gathering around you , welcoming you through the gates of heaven. Maybe you already smells the leaves of heaven and feel the serenity of sounds of river and soothing winds surrounds your body. Whatever your situation is, I am sure , your heart is sparkling with joyousness and blissfulness that none of us could understand.
I don’t know you that much.
But I know, whatever you have done in you short life, was
damn a great one! And Subhanallah, it appears on the hearts of hundreds other whom you know and don’t, once they know you already left us from this world.
Benarlah, mahalnya harga sebuah kesedaran , kerana hanya dengan kematianmu sahaja, ramainya hati mula tersentuh dan tersedar pada hari ini.
Termasuk diri ini.
Dan aku tahu, engkau hanyalah jundiy yang masih baru bertatih dan masih baru mengecap nikmatnya berada di jalan dakwah ini.
But you already showed to us, that this path, path of dakwah, is worth to fight for.
No matter how difficult our situation is, no matter how hard the road, you have shown to us that this life is so meaningless without dakwah.
Nothing can explained this until yesterday, when everyone was talking about you and your last 4 years of dakwah and tarbiyah. It just amazing.
And i reflected myself, would my death will be like yours? Will I be dead in similar situation like yours? having a heart as pure as yours? Will I find my end of life while doing dakwah like yours? Will my name will be known to heaven before it is known to people of the earth? I don’t know. And I am scared the thought of it, because all of us who stayed wouldn’t know what’s going to happen to us in the future. Not even the next minute of our life.
You, my brother, had showed to us, how sweet the death could be, and how life with dakwah are full of joyous and greatness.
You showed to us, there is not time to feel down and low, and to just go with the flow.
You showed to us that, in this life, everything will be worth it, if we all out in dakwah.
And I missed those feeling. The feeling of himmah and all out in dakwah. The fire that burns the heart and flashes the energy to the body to just move forward, although the storm is just right in front of our eyes.
Anta telah menyedarkan ana bahawa, hidup ini tidak berguna, jika dakwah dan tarbiyah bukanlah nadi dalam kehidupan kita.
Telah lama keadaan ana begitu, just go with the flow. Just watch and see. Just nodding, just yes- yes, just, jadi melancholy dalam dakwah. No more eagerness and intuition to make great changes. I suddenly became a person who already tend to become a follower.
Ur death stroked my heart and shook it. I became stumbled and stunned. I know I haven’t done enough. I know my biggest mistakes is allowing external factors to consume me and mold me to be a person I was not meant to be. I allowed the laziness , the slow motion, the lay back , distractions, unfocused and comfortably in my own comfort zone to be my aim of life. And I know for months, something is not right. But I just cant find the way out.
And yesterday was the day when I looked back my life after receiving wassap text from fellow friends about your grave situations. You showed to the world, you have done enough to gain the jannah. And i know, I am just not ready yet. And I have to work more!
and that’s how I know, I also have to make changes in my life. I just cannot live as it is now.
And you know, someone quite close to you have told me about something he disagreed with you. And he mentioned that what you did in the past was quite bad and unacceptable.
But yesterday, you have showed to me that, none of what he said matters anymore. And I am sure Allah has forgiven you for what you did and accept your deed afterwards. You really showed to me, what you did was right. Run away from dunya to jannah. Unhooked yourself from being tide away from dakwah. And you have proven that your sacrifice for dakwah is really worth it. So much worth it.
And for that.
I envy you.
I wish I could be like you. Your name already written up there. And I wish and keep on praying that I can also follow your footsteps in Jannah.
I am nothing significant to you nor you know me that well. But you already quite significant to us, and I am sure your rewards will continously be overflown by a lot of people who appeared to received some light of hidayah through you.
Kesedaran itu terlalu mahal harganya sehinggakan dengan kematianmu sahajalah, hatiku dan hati ramainya manusia lain mula tersedar dan bermuhasabah beristighfar.
I should thank you Iman, for this. This is the biggest tazkirah for all of us. It will be next milestones for all of us. I wish you can able to see the storm of dakwah coming after this. insyaallah
Ana , ukhtika fillah,
Tribute to akh iman, seorang akh yang mendapat tarbiyah di bumi UK. Lahir 1989, meninggal semalam akibat kemalangan jalan raya. Seorang yang harum dalam dakwah. Banyak pengorbanan yang telah dilakukannya. Orangnya muda dan begitu bersahaja. Seorang yang tegas dan tahu arah tujuan hidupnya. Dia pernah lari dari rakan yang amat disayanginya hanya untuk menyelamatkan dakwahnya. Saya tak begitu mengenalinya, tapi hari semalam, tiada yang berkata mengenainya kecuali kebaikan semata-mata. Moga Allah meredhai dirinya dan menempatkan diriNya di syurga abadi.
PS: saya berbual dengan mutarabbi saya dan kami berbincang mengapa kematian akh iman ini amat memberi kesan di jiwa ramai orang, Jawapan kami boleh simpulkan: kerana dia ikhlas ketika bertemu dengan Allah S.W.T. Yes, that’s it.