‘The only thing that I cannot get it right is my study’, said Lalang to Angin.
‘Why you said that?’
Lalang sat peacefully and tried to pull out the right words to express her feelings.
‘If people asked me to organise halaqah, i know exactly what to do. I know what materials to cover, how to make it interested and dynamic. But I am stucked when it comes to my study. And I feel sucks!’
Is sucks should be use by an ukht? Huhuhuh… what else can be used to describe that ‘feeling of garbage’…
It feels bad because of the language. And this final year is very very very English demanding and tasking. Lalang sat in the library browsing through the previous years elective reports, and she knew she was far far away from the standard. Maybe she just had 10% of the competency of those people had.
Can I become an M.D by end the year? Lalang thought sadly.
Have you felt hopeless, really low and rubbish?That you are not good enough to be one of the best medical students who are strikingly get through the medical educations?
The only thing I cannot get it right is my study and it feels sucks! How I wish I can take it confidently, without hassles, sailing through the exam without jeopardising the dakwah work, or even sacrificing them.
Lalang, can you do that?
‘Angin, can you help to get through this? With Allah helps, of course..it felt so heavy in my chest..’ Lalang looked at Angin with deep hopes.
Can Angin? Can?