Hari-hari yang panjang dan memenatkan

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Alhamdulillah summal hamdulillah,Sometimes I wonder when I don’t have time to even read whatever I want, don’t have time to do what I want to do, I wonder where has the ‘barakah’ of time gone?

The past few days had been hectic for me. I slept at about 3-4 am every night. Just to finish off my patient record to be submitted yesterday. Still I was not really happy when I handed in. There were still many flaws and holes to repair but I just could not be bothered to spend more time in doing it.

Alhamdulillah I have got a sister who was always with me, to listen to my frustration and agony, to wake me up in the morning and to remind my heart about my role as His servant in this world. Somehow I just forgot about Him. I did , and how I feel ashame of myself, when I kept calling people to Him but indeed I forgot to purify myself each second. In my mind I just want to get over with the work and continue with other work which is more important to me right now; STUDYING!

Everyone hates it in class. The Record of Achievement is supposed to help us in our study. I found it amusing to learn about the diseases, but because we have to struggle with our time to study, the task to write up 12 patients records with reflective summary is not an enjoyable learning process after all.

I still have another 2000 words essay to be submitted tomorrow. Another role plays to be done by next Monday. And my exam is just another 5 weeks! And I haven’t finished looking at a single block!

But the most devastated thing is I feel so distance to Him. When I struggled to steal some of my time with Him, to read His words and to memorise them. And how weird when I reflected back when I enjoyed reading emails and talking to people more than if I spend that precious time with Him. Sometimes I think again, why don’t I need Him as much as I need other people? And again I would blame the environment that makes me so lonely but even if I am overwhelmed with people, would I be closer to Him?

I am so sorry to myself for not utilizing my potential to write more about Islam, to preach more people about Islam and I wish that I would not be overwhelmed with my study and content with my own problems until I make my dakwah as a secondary work. But still, not many people understand the responsibility that we need to shoulder. Not many people understand that even if they against it, they are daie of Allah, and we cannot run from it. And so many people ask me to stop involving with dakwah work and focus on my study but they don’t understand how heart-breaking their request is. It is not the matter of choice, it is a matter of responsibility when Allah created humankind, He commands us to become His Khalifah ( 2:30). And by bounding ourselves with His command, we have to do what He asked us to do without any hesitancy. But why? Why bother to help Him? He is the Lord of this world! Surely He can make Islam rise again. Surely if He wants, He can make 6 billions men in this world to submit to Him. But this is not how the world works. This is not what He wants to happen. Because He wants us to grab the chance, the chance to get as much bounty and deeds that we can in this world, for us to enjoy in the paradise.

He said in the Quran :

Allah hath purchased of the believers their persons and their goods; for theirs (in return) is the garden (of Paradise): they fight in His cause, and slay and are slain: a promise binding on Him in truth, through the Law, the Gospel, and the Qur’an: and who is more faithful to his covenant than Allah. then rejoice in the bargain which ye have concluded: that is the achievement supreme ( 9:111)

Because Allah buys our souls, buy our belongings with the price of Jannah! What is more grandiose, what is more special than the price of Jannah? When a person knows what they want to achieve in his life, a life that he can lives longer than his age in this world, he will strive for it and he will work ward for it, although he needs to sacrifice his wealth and life to achieve it.

Indeed the struggle to get His mardhathillah would be neverending. O Allah, grant me the strength and shine me your lights in this path… Ameen…

Malam ini ada usrah and ustaz minta hafal hadis 40. Jazakallah tu http://www.dakwahilahi.blogspot.com/ sebab dapatkan link audio hadis 40, mudah2an lebih mudah nak hafal hadis selepas ini. Nak hafal mmg susah, tp kalau takde keinginan lagilah menyusahkan.

Doakan aku berjaya dalam examku 1-3 May ini. Memang perjuangan dalam medan pelajaran sangat getir dan susah. Baru aku sedari yang otak kiriku tak sepower otak kananku… begitu mudah jemariku menaip bait2 kata sajak, syair dan cerpen, tapi alangkah susahnya tatkala aku diminta menulis essay tentang pesakit yang mempunyai sakit barah otak mahupun jangkitan paru-paru.

Salam perjuangan buat semua!

Hadis Pilihan saya .

عَنْ أَبي عَبْدِ الرحمنِ عَبْدِ اللهِ بْنِ مَسْعُودٍ رضى الله عنه قَالَ: حَدَّثَنَا رَسُولُ الله صلَّى الله عليهِ وسَلَّمَ وهو الصَّادِقُ الْمَصْدُوْقُ: (( إِنَّ أَحَدَكُمْ يُجْمَعُ خَلْقُهُ فِي بَطْنِ أُمِّهِ أَرْبَعِيْنَ يَوْمًا نُطْفَةً، ثُمَّ يَكُوْنُ عَلَقَةً مِثْلَ ذَلِكَ، ثُمَّ يَكُوْنُ مُضْغَةً مِثْلَ ذَلِكَ، ثُمَّ يُرْسَلُ إِلَيْهِ المَلَكُ فَيَنْفُخُ فِيْهِ الرُّوْحَ وَيُؤْمَرُ بِأَرْبَعِ كَلِمَاتٍ؛ بِكَتْبِ رِزْقِهِ وَأَجَلِهِ وَعَمَلِهِ وَشَقِيٌّ أَوْ سَعِيْدٌ. فَوَاللهِ الَّذِي لا إلهَ غَيْرُهُ إِنَّ أَحَدَكُمْ لَيَعْمَلُ بِعَمَلِ أَهْلِ اْلجَنَّةِ حَتَّى مَا يَكُوْنَ بَيْنـَهُ وَبَيْنَهَا إِلاَّ ذِرَاعٌ فَيَسْبِقُ عَلَيْهِ الْكتِاَبُ فَيَعْمَلُ بِعَمَلِ أَهْلِ النَّارِ فَيَدْخُلُهَا. وَإِنَّ أَحَدَكُمْ لَيَعْمَلُ بِعَمَلِ أَهْلِ النَّارِ حَتَّى مَا يَكُوْنَ بَيْنَهُ وَبَيْنَهَا إِلاَّ ذِرَاعٌ فَيَسْبِقُ عَلَيْهِ الكِتَابُ فَيَعْمَلُ بِعَمَلِ أَهْلِ اْلجَنَّةِ فَيَدْخُلُهَا )). رواه البخاري ومسلم.

Daripada Abu Abdul Rahman Abdullah ibn Mas’uud r.a. beliau berkata: Rasulullah SAW telah bersabda, dan Baginda adalah seorang yang benar lagi dibenarkan (iaitu dipercayai):Sesungguhnya setiap orang di kalangan kamu dihimpunkan kejadiannya dalam perut ibunya selama 40 hari berupa air mani, kemudian menjadi segumpal darah selama tempoh yang sama, kemudian menjadi seketul daging selama tempoh yang sama, kemudian dikirimkan kepadanya seorang malaikat lalu dia menghembuskan padanya ruh dan dia diperintahkan dengan 4 kalimat; iaitu supaya menulis rezekinya, ajalnya, amalannya dan adakah dia celaka atau bahagia. Demi Allah Yang tiada Tuhan melainkanNya, sesungguhnya salah seorang dari kalangan kamu akan beramal dengan amalan ahli syurga, sehingga jarak antaranya dan syurga tidak lebih dari sehasta, lalu dia didahului oleh ketentuan tulisan kitab lantas dia mengerjakan amalan ahli neraka lalu dia memasuki neraka. Dan sesungguhnya salah seorang dari kalangan kamu akan beramal dengan amalan ahli neraka, sehingga jarak antaranya dengan neraka tidak lebih dari sehasta, lalu dia didahului oleh ketentuan tulisan kitab lantas dia mengerjakan amalan ahli syurga lalu dia memasuki syurga.Hadis riwayat al-lmam al-Bukhari dan al-lmam Muslim.


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